"Having dreams is what makes life tolerable."
Rudy (excellent movie if you've not yet seen it)
A bit of a pessimistic quote I admit. I want my dreams to make life more than tolerable. How about exciting, fun, abundant, joyful? This is what I've been thinking a lot about lately. Perhaps it's because often as a mother I feel my 'dreams' must be put on hold for the purpose of raising kids, taking care of a home and husband, etc. But this mindset of 'putting your life on hold' while so and so needs you, while this and that happens, may not be the key to living a full and abundant life. For someone may always need me, and this and that will never cease to happen. We will perhaps just end up bitter or unhappy with the good things that are surrounding us, because we never got to _____ (you fill in the blank). So...the question is: How do I live my dreams, i.e. my heart's desires, amidst the mundane toils of daily life?
Obviously, the answer is not found in ourselves. I looked up 'heart's desire' in Bible Gateway to refresh my memory of what the Bible says about such things. Surely He who knit us together in the womb, who knows our every thought, who forsees our every step, who created us in His image, would know the secret to this question.
HE HOLDS OUR HEARTS IN HIS HAND! I hope these verses will comfort you, give you perspective and a fresh hope for today and every day.
Psalm 37:4-6 (New International Version)
4 Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the
desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. (Italics added)
2 Chronicles 1:10-12 (New International Version)
10 Give me wisdom and knowledge, that I may lead this people, for who is able to govern this great people of yours?"
11 God said to Solomon, "Since this is your
heart's desire and you have not asked for wealth, riches or honor, nor for the death of your enemies, and since you have not asked for a long life but for wisdom and knowledge to govern my people over whom I have made you king,
12 therefore wisdom and knowledge will be given you. And I will also give you wealth, riches and honor, such as no king who was before you ever had and none after you will have." (italics added)
Deuteronomy 6:5 (New International Version)
5 Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.
Psalm 139:13 (New International Version)
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
Isaiah 55:2 (New International Version)
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your
soul will delight in the richest of fare. (italics added)
Now as I read these verses I was reminded of a very important lesson: our dreams need to be in alignment with God's heart, and his will, if they have any chance of becoming reality. Obviously if my dream was to smoke marijauna (which I assure you is NOT the case, but you get the idea) He is not under any remote obligation to fulfill it. God is not our genie. He is however our Father, Friend, Protecter, and Redeemer. He makes life livable!
So is my dream of one day being in a musical a bad one? (you know, 'CATS: The Remake' or something of that nature. Can't you see me jumping and dancing around singing at the top of my lungs "Jellicle cats are queen of the night, singing at astronomical heights, handling pieces from the Messiah,...")
What about playing the Rach 2 at Carnegie Hall? Ok that's a little far fetched, I'll never be that good, and I'm ok with that. But I would like to play a concerto again with an orchestra at some part of my life!
Or the desire to be in a square-dancish/ Irish music type band. How fun would that be??
I realize these aspirations may not be the most spiritual desires ever (we can save those for another day, babies are starting to cry for attention) but they are nonetheless part of who I am. And I think to deny that would be to deny the creativity and imagination and the unique qualities God instilled in me that make me who I am. So for now, amidst diapers, toys, and laundry, I will have to sing CATS by myself (but yay! with an audience of 2), listen to Celtic music on the CD player, and play a page from the Rach 2 here and there.
Besides, I bet in Heaven there will be plenty of singing, dancing, good company and good food to delight us far above what we could ever dream up on this earth. And so with that (and now screaming boys to attend to) I leave you. Until next time...